This has been a fun week with the start of school...but definitely a hard one.  In the last couple of weeks I had some really weird dreams that to me seemed like nightmares. 

This week was the first week back to school, which in my mind started the first week back to busy busy work.  On Wednesday I found out the my pet of 18 years had moved on.  Its hard for me to take knowing that the next time I wont see him at all.  My parents are taking it very hard.  In other notes my step dad went in for what I thought was going to be prostate surgery only to find out that it was a consultation and he will be scheduled for surgery hopefully soon.  I found this out at work and I really was already in a bad mood because I felt I entered into chaos because certain expectations from some of my staff were not fulfilled(a write up comes monday).

I need God bad...not not turn my back like I seem like I have 50000 times before

Hope everyone is doing well lately....

I spent yesterday doing nothing until 5pm...so lazy

and I did a lot of emotional eating...I do that....not a good thing...I wasn't in a good state a mind.

I am actually kind of excited for church tonight...and I havent been like that in a while